We've known all along that there's a chance Brewer might not pull through one of his surgeries or that complications may arise that might take him from us. Today that hit me again pretty hard. I had to ask myself if I'm soaking in every moment. I don't ever want to look back and wished I had given him more kisses, sung him more songs or held him more. So today that's what I'm doing. My house might be messy and I could really use a shower, but I'm choosing to ignore all that so I can snuggle my sweet baby. He fits perfectly in my arms and his warmth warms my heart. My spirit is lifted and comforted again to know that he's sealed to Phil and me. He's ours, in this life and the next. Over the past year I've come to realize more fully how beautiful and perfect this gospel is. I am so blessed to have the knowledge of a Heavenly Father whose love for us is incomprehensible. The knowledge of an older brother, Jesus Christ, who lived to be our example, suffered so we can become perfect through Him, and died and was resurrected so that we may too live with our Heavenly Father and our families in the next life. My heart is full of gratitude and joy as I sit and rock Brewer, watching him sleep. What a tremendous blessing he has been to me, our family and hundreds of others!
Excellente! Perfecto!
5 years ago
5 comments:
I just wanted to say hi and keep staying strong as you have been and i am glad that your just holding him today. hope you have a great day today thanks for taking the time to update it means a lot
tears.
your testimony touches me every time.
how true it is that our heavenly father's love and atonement fills the parts of our hearts that are empty or confused. it doesn't take away our pain or trial but it certainly makes it easier to understand.
brewer has taught me and continues to teach me each day. his life and his spirit, i can tell, are much older then his eight weeks on this earth. he is amazing. and so are you!
love you.
Thank you for sharing those thoughts with us today. It's a wonderful reminder to all of us to focus on the good things, the important things, in life. It's so easy to be swept up in the day to day happenings. But all of us need to have days where we really soak in the moments with our loved ones and reflect on the blessings of the gospel. Brewer is so lucky to have you and Phil as his parents. Your testimony is such a source of strength and inspiration to me and so many others, Jerai. I love you!
I love this post. I love your testimony, and I know I'm not the only one strengthened by it.
I once read an article (or talk) in the Ensign. I'm pretty sure it was President Uchtdorf who told the story of a Pulitzer Prize-winning author who, on his death bed, said that he wished he would have written one less masterpiece and spent that time with his children instead.
Boyd and Brew don't care if your shower gets postponed a day! You are truly amazing, Ju.
I'm Amanda Munns daughter, Mckell and I just wanted to say that even though I've never met your wonderful family that I think about you guys every day. Brewer looks like such a sweet baby and you and your husband seem like such great parents. I hope I get to see you when I come up to Idaho next!!
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